I stood there for four years now,
Thinking, embracing, loathing at the same time
Recreating the few moments of joy in my mind.
Though the place wasn’t the kind
You’ll fall in love with.
But I got so much absorbed in the day to day activities,
That now when I leave the place
I feel I lost my position of comfort and easy fame behind.
I stand at the junction where I stood four years ago,
The only difference being the circumstances
Four years ago I stood der as novice,
But now I stand there with much elegance and poise.
Still nothing has changed,
I stand there with a similar frame in the mind.
Which is empty and demanding to be filled
With a beautiful but still uncertain picture inside.
The picture gets created and recreated with every possible thought
And destroyed by conflict of thoughts and a deep abstract, absurd insight.
People have been party and some made it as a part of my inside.
They danced, loved, created joy and like a passing cloud left within a while.
The point isn’t who they were and how longer they stayed
It’s the little mark which they have left.
I still stand at the juncture where there are many like me standing beside,
I don’t know them, neither do they
But they have the same frame of mind.
I’m no different but still special from the rest.
Just need the break and the clarity of perspective,
Which would help me to create the picture of my uncertain frame.
I try escaping the juncture of thoughts
But it’s not that easy to fight, especially
When you have every possibility of God given skill
To deal with and making it difficult to choose the path
Which could be right.
But I still fight,
In the hope of making it right.
If not today, but definitely someday
When I fail and still have courage to walk back to the juncture
To start the fight again with little hesitation and lot of might.
———– Dhiraj Kumar K ( Naw an engineer J )